Anxiety strikes back: I’m 23.

This is my first mental health post I have done in a while. It might not make sense to you. Then again … anxiety, depression doesn’t make sense. Please bare with me as it’s hard for me to post.
I’m 23. I’m walking to the doctors. The same route I use to walk to my exes house. My heart rate goes up. I can’t breathe. My eyes start to go teary. Fuck, this heat isn’t helping. Why is everyone looking at me ?!…

My body starts to shake and feels heavy. I’m 17 again. I’m isolated, alone, confused, angry. Used and abused by the same guy who claims to love me. I just want everyone to go away. I’m back to feeling the way I did when I was 17 and I hate it. I can’t stand it. Cars and people are rushing by me, but I’m not in the same world as they are. I’m disconnected, living in the past.

Im back home. I’m 23 again. I’m exhausted. I’m pushed to my limits and I’m drained. I’m wearing the scars someone else inflicted on me. I’m 23 and I’ve lived more than most. I sure it’s a blessing in disguise.



Lush: Catastrophe Cosmetic Fresh Facemask review

I need to talk about something, something I’ve wanted to talk about for a long time.. I love facemasks…!

The problem with this love? My skin. My skin doesn’t love them. Every facemask I’ve tried has left me sore and red as a lobster thanks to the ingredient kaolin that absorbs oil.

But let me introduce you to Catastrophe Cosmetic Fresh Facemask from Lush.


This sweet, lovely smelling miracle is perfect for my oily, spot prone, sensitive skin due to the kind ingredients. It rids my skin of oil but doesn’t make me feel dry. As soon as its washed off my spots are less red thanks to the chamomile.

. Spots are instantly less red
. Pores look smaller
. Skin feels and looks smooth
. It smells amazing!
. No irritation
. Makes skin look brighter
. It has my favourite thing in it, blueberries!
. Kind ingredients – good for sensitive skin
. Helps achieve a even skin tone

. Priced at £6.50 not a cheap option
. Has to be used with in 3 weeks due to fresh ingredients
. Difficult to wash off – I hold a warm wet flannel over my face for 5 seconds before washing off.

My tips to get the best out of this mask are, before using wash your face with Fresh Fharmacy facial soap also from lush. Before you wash the mask off give your face a quick massage. Then hey Presto lovely skin! I use it once a week to (try to) keep spots away.

I recommend this face mask! It’s the best I’ve ever tried. I am on my second pot and will buy again and again!