It’s not like the good old days.
Now I’m not the kinda woman to want to be stuck at home and raise a family while my partner makes all the money. I thought I could do it all as I am a woman! But while reading my work terms and conditions I was surprised to see I’d only get 39 weeks of maternity pay! So before my baby was even a year old I’d be expected to be working my ass of for minimum wage while leaving my infant with a stranger! (I’m not pregnant!)
I know us girls have equal rights, but we can’t be expected to have a family (if we want) and hold down a job to pay for the bundle of joy, I don’t think all the ladies who burnt their bras so we could have these equal rights really though it through..!
It seems us girls can’t have it all, we can’t be a stay at home mum as that doesn’t put food on the table or pay the bills, but should we really only focus on making money? Isn’t being a mother the most rewarding of jobs? I guess it’s because of all the femals who have children as they are too lazy to work that ruins it for those of us wh0 do wan’t it all. Should working/single mothers get more right?…
Girls, Girls, Girls.
I am getting so tierd of seeing girls dressing and acting like they have no respect for themselves, like they are advertising a whore house. I think confidence is sexy and think every girl should love who they are, but do they really need to walk around half-naked even in winter, the only thing you’re going to get from that is a cold or an STI!
Trust me, wearing nice fitting clothes that show off your curves and only a bit of skin = sexy and classy, wearing clothes that show of every bit of skin = desperate and insecure which is not attractive. I feel that mystery also attracts people to you and showing off all your body isn’t very mysterious now is it?
I am confident enough to wear clothes that hug my curvy figure but not show too much flesh and still feel and know I look good ! ….Just sayin’….
Dedicated to my Ex
It’s been over 2 years now but the wounds still feel fresh.
When I first met you I was attracted to you, you looked so wrong for me. You were funny and seemed to care about me. I now know that was all a lie.
I used to be so sweet, innocent, I always saw the good in everyone and it was impossible for me to hate anyone. You proved that people do have evil in them.
You knew me better than I knew myself, you used my shyness, my politeness and my school girl crush on you to control my emotions, make me submissive, I thought you did this because you liked me God, I was so naive!
You made me feel so guilty for being shy around you, like it offended you so much I owed you sex, I can’t believe that worked on me. You emotionally hurt me, made me fear you, controlled me, told me how to feel, used me, physically hurt me, I couldn’t tell anyone as I was ashamed that I let you do this to me. All this fear, guilt and ashamed caused me to self harm, I was only 17 going through this alone, no one to confined in, I should have walked away but I couldn’t, you were my obsession, my addiction.
I’m so glad you’re out of my life now. The pain is still there and I feel broken inside, unable to trust any man, unable to let anyone get close to me due to fear they will do what you did to me. But let me tell you this my friend…you are nothing but an insecure, pathetic, cheating little boy and one day you will get what you deserve, maybe not from me, but from someone who won’t take your bullshit like I did.
I do have to thank you though, because, wow, you have turned me into a much stronger, wiser person, you tried to break me but I came out better than you will ever be. I have learnt so much like; how to spot a control freak, how independent and strong I am and what love shouldn’t be like. So thanks Mr.S, because I’m the one laughing now!!!!
P.s I went to so many counselling sessions, but couldn’t fully open up to them, I couldn’t do it face to face, so this has been my way of opening up without having to face anyone.
Falling In Reverse, Drug In Me Is you Album Review.
Drug In Me Is You is the debut album by the band Falling In Reverse. Frontman/Lead singer Ronnie served time in prison for battery and from the album it is clear he is in a reflective mood and has some issues he has been dealing with.
Rarely an album is so honest, it’s clear lead singer Ronnie wears his heart on his sleeve. This album tells of his time in prison for the battery of an 18-year old boy, it’s clear Ronnie feels he was wrongly accused and is angry at his former friends and ex band mates.
The lyrics are deep and honest and the whole album has a dramatic, unbalanced feel that Ronnie pulls off oh so well. His voice is at his best ever while he maintains his 80′s glam but slightly darker rock look. This has to be my favourite rock/metal album of the year ! I give Falling In Reverse’s debut album 4/5.
Inspiration.
Everyone looks up to someone who helps shape who they are, it can be anyone, a celebrity, a historical figure etc.
My personal figure of inspiration if not famous. He is a 60-year-old retired man who lives in a bungalow with his wife in a small town. This man is my Grandfather.
My Grandfather grew up in London living in council flats. Eddie has always been a fighter and even survived Scarlet fever at a young age which could have killed him. He always had a strong work ethic and worked all his adult life in numerous (17-19) different jobs untill the pain from his diseases became too much. He is also funny and pushes me to do my best in everything I do.
Theses are all amazing traits for a personal to have and this is why my Grandfather inspires me to question everything, to try my best, to fight for what I believe is right.
Things can only get better
Fresh start
It’s been six weeks since my long-term relationship came to an
end, badly. For the first two weeks I was in agony, I had never felt that kind
of pain before and even sunk back into self-harming.
It was like a nightmare I couldn’t escape from, I kept
“begging” him to take me back as I was certain he was my soul mate,
I’d cry myself to sleep every night, there was no light at the end of the
tunnel.
Then it hit me; I’m a strong woman who will not let a man destroy me,
I deserve to let him go and move on with my life. I realised, (with help from
my girlfriends,) that he wasn’t my soul mate and I wasn’t destined to be with
him and I have now accepted that, yeah I miss his friendship and am hurt he’d
rather be single than with me after all the good times we had, after all the
effort we both put in, but I know that these feelings will fade with time.
I’m now feeling so positive about myself, about my future. I have
already started dating someone who is sweet, funny and gets on well with my
friends. Some people may think that I’m in the wrong for moving on so fast
after an eighteen month relationship, that it means I didn’t love or care for
him, however I feel ready so do not owe anyone a damn justification. I’m happy
and I’m thankful for that.
I just wish I could have dealt with the break-up better instead of
crying , self-harming, constantly asking for him back, I should have talked to
my girls about how upset I was, maybe that would have saved me a lot of heart-ache.
Music is my life
Recently, I’ve come to realise how big music is as an influence.
Music is part of everyday life, it’s very common to see teenagers/young adults walking around listening to music (on their, mp3, phone, iPod etc), music is so easy to access now what with being able to download music on websites.
You’ll see a lot of teenagers or young adults dress according to the type of music they listen to, (I don’t like to label people or anything..) for example, if you see a person with all black clothes on, black nails and piercings and/or tattoos you would assume that person listens to metal and/or rock music, this can make that person feel accepted when hanging out with people who enjoy the same kind of music.
Music can help you daydream and maybe think about the past, which can cause some tears but I think that’s healthy! However, music can also distract you, taking your mind of off pain, bonus!
Another reason I believe music is a big influence is because of artists such as Lady Gaga – she is always causing turning heads with he music, lyrics, videos and style which gets people talking – and thinking !
I think I’ve made my point 
The art of moving on. It’s not all doom and gloom being single !
What does one do after a 14 month relationship ends? When you feel like you’re nothing with out your other half. It’s time to move on!
Finding something that makes you happy ..
Now you have time to yourself again you can concentrate on making yourself happy; go out with friends, shop, have a girly night in, read .. just enjoy it 
It’s okay to feel sad, upset and hurt, but don’t let those feelings control your life
Getting rid of those memories ….
Why keep the things that are going to remind you of your ex? … Bin em’ and move on already! Delete all the text messages, emails etc, delete their email, number, Facebook .. You’ll start to feel much better .. there’s no point dwelling on the past.
Theres plenty of fish in the sea …
You will find someone new, maybe not by next week, but overtime you will meet someone better. It’s always scary getting back on the “dating scene” especially when it feels like a lifetime since you were last single. It’s not hard to find someone … go out with your mates, try dating websites, which ever way works best for you. Just be yourself and you bag yourself someone else before you know it!
Remeber .. it’s okay and natural “to mourn” but just don’t let being single ruin your chance of happiness..
Alice In Wonderland 2011
Ever since I was a child I have loved the story of Alice in Wonderland so I jumped at the chance to go and review the pantomime version on the 13th January, and what a pleasure it was.
The actors and actresses really made the characters come alive each giving a wonderful and energetic performance. I found myself grinning the whole way through and getting lost in this excellent and hilarious show!
“I couldn’t stop laughing, It was brilliant. My children loved it but the small amount of adult humour made me pleased I went along” – Ms Jones. a very pleased member of the audience!
Although there were only a small number of people in the audience each of them seemed to be engaged with the show and the characters all cheering or booing at the characters.
Overall a good night!
I am a self-confessed making a list addict!
We all have things that can instantly put us in a good mood when we’re feeling sad, angry or just plain fed up.
How can this NOT make you laugh or smile? !
My top 10 are … In no order might I add;
1) Making time to see a friend. Even if it is just to sit down and do nothing but chat. My best friend never fails to make me laugh till it hurts. How can that fail to but you in a good mood?!
2) Reading through nice texts/emails. If I’m feeling sad or lonely, reading through texts or emails that made me smile makes me feel happy again ! Reminds me that I have so many good mates.
3) Watching a programme I use to love as a kid.
4) Running a nice hot bath. You can’t beat a bit of relaxation now can you?!
5) Having early nights. I love climbing into bed with a book I can get lost in, that never fails to get me relaxed. An early night really can make you feel a million dollars the next day.
6) Writing down my worries. Sometimes if I can’t sleep, I get a bit of paper and a pen or pencil and write down everything that’s bothering me or a list of things I have to do – I am a self-confessed making a list addict and proud of it!
7) Spending time with my family. They may drive me insane at times but they aren’t half bad at cheering me up.
8) Reaching my little goals. After writing down (in list form of course) little and achievable goals I love knowing I can tick it off, makes me feel good inside,.
9) Shopping. Retail therapy, the best kind of therapy! My favourite thing to buy is a new pair of skinny jeans – always the highlight of the day when I go shopping.
10) Watching my cat. Sounds silly I know. But my cat is always hyper and always doing things that make my family and me laugh, it’s nice to watch her.
So there you have it … phew, 10 things that cheer me up on a bad day 
